First they put away the dealers,keep our kids safe and off the street. Then they put away the prostitutes, keep married men cloistered at home. Then they shooed away the bums, then they beat and bashed the queers, turned away asylum-seekers, fed us suspicions and fears. We didn't raise our voice, we didn't make a fuss. It's funny there was no one left to notice when they came for us.

Be A Part Of Something New

So my friend and I are thinking about starting a magazine. We noticed that isn't anything for the college/young adult market. Some of the things we want to do so far are:

- Have reviews for movies, books, restaurants, small businesses, hair dressers, fashion, music, tattoo places
- FML section
- Cartoons and puzzles, etc.
- Local Events
- Sports
- Interviews with various local musicians, artists, etc
- Classifieds


We need people who are interested and possibly have experience in

- Writing (You can write and research your interest, music, food, fashion, etc)
- Photography
- Web design
- Web security
- Printers
- Adobe experience (Photoshop, Illustrator, InDesign)
- Graphic Design
- Advertising

If you're interested or know anyone else who might be interested, please send us a message on facebook or email us at in_tha_rayne0781@yahoo.com (Jen) or moonlit_iz@yahoo.com (Hannah)

For those in college, you might be able to talk to your professors and see if this could count for an internship, or extra credit, but regardless, it is something that you can put down on a resume or application.

Accountabilty

So, the road to a newer and better me has begun. I started working out again. Yoga classes. I always feel so amazing whenever I get out if the class. I feel stronger, more flexible. I even feel prettier. Maybe it's because I'm drinking more water too. I started my water diet when I moved here to Tucson. I'm so afraid of the sun and being dehydrated that I drink about twelve to fourteen glasses of water per day. A little obsessive? I know. But I'm convinced that my skin and my hair are benefiting from it. I haven't had a breakout since I've been here. So I'm excited about that. I think that the water has really helped with my hair too. The weather here is so dry. And normally would feel like straw. But it doesn't. Maybe it's the water, maybe it's the exercise,or maybe it's the fact that I actually take the time to really take care of my hair. I condition and moisturize my hair everyday. And I use all natural products. No petroleum or mineral oil. Put things in your body that organic and that your body can use. If you wouldn't put it in your mouth then don't put it in your hair. Just a word to the wise. So that's enough about my health and beauty. How about me mentally? I feel good. I start school in a couple of weeks. I'm really excited about my classes. I'm taking an anthropology class which I am really looking forward to. I'm also taking a fashion merchandising class that I'm also really excited about. I also said that I would read more. And I did. I've begun to read the book, "Why Men Love Bitches" by Sherry Argove. It's okay. It's pretty common sensible. But sometimes the shit we do just doesn't make any sense. And for a while there I needed to use some common sense. So the book kind of reminds me to make sure that concerning men and relationships, I come first. No man, no matter how sexy he his or how good the sex may be, is worth my sanity and self-respect. HUGE word to the wise. So that's just my little update. I'm trying my best to better myself. I learned that when we goals sometimes the reason we don't accomplish them is because we have no way to hold ourselves accountable. So I'm using this, my journal writing, my blogging, to hold myself accountable. Accountability is the word people of America. I'm serious about my life this time. So I will be checking in very often just to make sure that I do what I say I will do. Like I said my goal is to be FABULOUS. And I'm getting there slowly but surely. And I've answered my previous question for myself. "Is it wrong to want everyone to know how amazing I am?" It IS okay to want people to know how amazing you are. Embrace it. You love yourself and it would be selfish of you not to share your beauty with the entire world. If you don't love yourself, no one else will. So there you have it. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. And I am an AMAZING person!

Infatuation

"Infatuation is the state of being completely carried away by unreasoning passion or love; addictive love. Infatuation usually occurs at the beginning of a relationship. It is characterized by urgency, intensity, sexual desire, and/or anxiety, in which there is an extreme absorption in another. It is traditionally associated with youth."

THE NEW ME...i think?

So now that that chapter of my life is over, what's next? Looking back, he's gone back to what he gave up or so it seems. But that's enough time wasted on him. I'm not even trying to understand him or what he's doing. Move on JENDAYI!!! New school, new state, new living arrangements. Now is the time to regroup and make this one what the first one was supposed to be. Time to get my priorities straight; school, work, my family. Maybe now my father can be the father that he was supposed to be. Most importantly I need to focus on me. I want to be FABULOUS!!! Be the best that I can be, the best dressed, the healthiest, the most fit, most knowledgeable. I need to start reading more. Perhaps if I had spent more time reading books and less time worrying about a boy I would've been much better off. And maybe it sounds a little superficial or silly but I want to be completely unrecognizable whenever I head back. I am so ready for a change. A drastic change! Mostly because I haven't been being the person that I know I can be. The life I left behind was less than stellar. So, in some ways I feel like I gotta redeem myself. Not for them but for me. I know I'm better than that. Academically, mentaly, emotionally, socially I am much stronger than I think. I know I am and I want everyone to know that I am. I mean, is it wrong to want everyone to know how amazing I am?